Well... My fiance and I have had such a rough time... we broke up got back together broke up got back together now after 2 weeks of this off and on shit we decided a swinger relationship is the way to go till we finish college... still be together but see and screw other people... he gets what he wants and I get what I want... I know it sounds trashy but I have him... what else could I want. I can tell you this... I do NOT want any STD's at ALL... He knows I'd kill him. Well my dreams of moving to the UK are put on hold... but eventually it'll happen... it's now just a matter of when. I plan on furthering my education with my BA for English or History and Education. As long as I can teach I'm a happy camper. So now what??? IDK what to do... all I know is I'm engaged but single... SO FUCKING CONFUSING!!! However it's what he wants so I'm not going to take that away... I refuse to tell my family that we are back together... and I refuse to tell his family that we're single... We are going to act like a couple around our good friends and his family, but friends around everyone else. UGH... won't be easy... but in order to keep him I HAVE to go by the rules... I FUCKING HATE RULES... but I'll suffer... as long as the emotional, verbal, and mental abuse stop I'm giddy :)
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