Ok... so things with Marcus didn't work out... So Joel and I got back together... though thick and thin we've just been though so damn much..... He's cheated on me twice... but I oddly forgive him... But this time it's so much better... I've lost the weight... well some of it can't wait for the rest to come off... my birthday is this Saturday. I can't wait till I get home... I'm in California right now... I miss home so much. I miss him so much... I miss home so damn much. I can't wait to see him... wrap my arms around him and never let go. Five year mark hit a few days ago. It's been a very very crazy five years... but it's been a learning experience and it's been the best experience ever. I honestly don't know what I'd do with out him. I'd be so fucked... And most likely six feet under. He's been so cruel but to me it goes without saying why. He's doing it to help me understand and doing it for me to better myself and our relationship. I may have screwed up before... but I'm so glad we fixed it and got back together. I love him so much... As much as he pisses me off and as much as he hurt(s) me I can't ever leave him. Me and my silly addiction... but hey he's a cute addiction lol. He's going back in the military here soon... I can't wait for that... He's trying so hard and he almost has it... I can't wait only because he'll finally be 100% happy!!! And that is all I want for him.. Happiness... and I'm so glad that I can finally give it to him.... He deserves the best and I'm going to give him the best... that's why I'm losing the weight, and that's why I'm working on fixing myself. And I'M FINALLY PLANNING MY WEDDING AGAIN!!!! lol... though no date yet... but that's ok... at least I'll be prepared. :) Ok, so I'll end this with a I can't wait to be home back in his arms, and back home where I belong.
Thursday, June 7, 2012
FINALLY AGAIN
Ok... so things with Marcus didn't work out... So Joel and I got back together... though thick and thin we've just been though so damn much..... He's cheated on me twice... but I oddly forgive him... But this time it's so much better... I've lost the weight... well some of it can't wait for the rest to come off... my birthday is this Saturday. I can't wait till I get home... I'm in California right now... I miss home so much. I miss him so much... I miss home so damn much. I can't wait to see him... wrap my arms around him and never let go. Five year mark hit a few days ago. It's been a very very crazy five years... but it's been a learning experience and it's been the best experience ever. I honestly don't know what I'd do with out him. I'd be so fucked... And most likely six feet under. He's been so cruel but to me it goes without saying why. He's doing it to help me understand and doing it for me to better myself and our relationship. I may have screwed up before... but I'm so glad we fixed it and got back together. I love him so much... As much as he pisses me off and as much as he hurt(s) me I can't ever leave him. Me and my silly addiction... but hey he's a cute addiction lol. He's going back in the military here soon... I can't wait for that... He's trying so hard and he almost has it... I can't wait only because he'll finally be 100% happy!!! And that is all I want for him.. Happiness... and I'm so glad that I can finally give it to him.... He deserves the best and I'm going to give him the best... that's why I'm losing the weight, and that's why I'm working on fixing myself. And I'M FINALLY PLANNING MY WEDDING AGAIN!!!! lol... though no date yet... but that's ok... at least I'll be prepared. :) Ok, so I'll end this with a I can't wait to be home back in his arms, and back home where I belong.
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